Winter Bluez

i believe you

2006-06-21T22:39:00.000+08:00

hahaha.. sooooooooo long never blog le.. haha.. maybe got tired le ba.. or maybe no time... busy playing and studying i huess.. haha.. the last time i realli blogged was half a yr ago.. haha.. wondered anyone saw my blog.. haha..

ha. our situations are getting better since tt day niece msged me "u can tok to her le, she's ok le.." haha.. tt was months ago too.. wondered izzit true anot.. haha. tt time i did not feel so happy.. wondering y when i should.. although it gives me a chance to re-make frens wif her, it came after i told the white lie.. haiz.. maybe i should really give up? hahaha...

since i toked to her a long long time ago after a long long break, haha, it seems abit awkward still.. haha.. facing someone whom i lyk yet have to show otherwise... maybe im just zi qi qi ren.. haha.. watever lah.. now occationally still have chance to tok to her good enough le.. haha.. but everytime still being made fun of by classmates.. though most of them dunno the truth.. haha..

sometime in may was her birthday.. initially tot of just pass the day lyk a normal day without doing anything.. just in case got any awkward situations.. but in the end, something still happen.. haha.. the day b4 her birthday i had tuition as usual.. when going for break, my phone rang.. "buy cake" haha... yah.. tt's wat i did... chose one tt seems quite nice... my taste's not bad.. haha... my classmates enjoyed the cake, plus all the making fun of her and me.. felt very awkward but couldnt do anything.. just wanted to end the celebrations fast, just to end her embarrassment... then after tt everything went on as per normal... haha.. normal..

suddenly i felt as if i couldnt stay low profile anywhere.. haiz.. had the most attention and top profile in cat high, then came yj wanted to have as low a profile as possible.. but found it impossible.. haha.. u noe why lah ah.. haha.. seems lyk pple i dunno will also noe me.. haha... dunno is a good thing or a misfortune. haha.. hope it's good ba.. haha..

recently read an online novel, very very good.. although very very vulgar.. haha.. bought the book to read the last 3 chapters.. they dont show online.. abit cheat pple hor.. but ok lah.. worth it. haha.. should go and read it.. though abit crappy, but it seems quite real too.. haha.. maybe i toking crap myself.. haha..

now having holi... going to end soon le.. once it end is block test.. haiz.. better dont tok bout it.. if not i going to stress myself up again.. haha.. better to stay happy.. haha.. world cup is on the go now.. going to support france and italy.. hahaha.. france seems to be dying off.. haha.. hope they can trash togo.. haha..

wah.. first time typed so much.. haha.. time to go back to physics.. haha.. shall end here.. :)(:

"There was once a matchstick who scratched its head. Then it died." ;-)

2006-03-25T01:21:00.000+08:00

dotz dotz dotz......

Happy New Year

2006-01-31T22:42:00.001+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL MY FRENS AROUND THE WORLD!!! HAHA... :)

wah.. super long never blog le.. haha.. since last yr dec ah.. must be very bored see muy blog everytime the same old few postings rite.. haha.. no choice.. too busy wif school work le.. and bbaLL training.. every mon, wed and fri.. abit tiring.. then go home dont even have time to finish school work.. haha.. siao liaoz.. haha..

new yr holi ends just lyk tt.. in a flash.. after this should be study all the way le... should be no time to do other things ah... no time to chase gal, to date, to play... everyday should be just bball and maths and physics.. haha..

bout the gal i mentioned in previous postings rite.. haiz... super mah fan now... think lyk tt sae should be the most appropriate.. i love her, but i have to act tt i dont now.. haiz.. very frustrating.. now shall just make our relationship better.. in the sense of being frens.. haiz...

anyway, today is chu 3, i wish everyone have a prosperous and a happy yr ahead.. :)

Happy New Year

2006-01-31T22:42:00.000+08:00

wondering

2005-12-27T01:56:00.000+08:00

i wonder is it rite to change.. after nearly half a yr for one... changing now seems feasible.. but i wonder whether my heart realli wants to change.. i am going to be vexer alr.. but if i dont change does the previous one have any fruit?? there is still a chance if i change.. i dunno.. i realli dunno.. is it rite? wat will the others say..?

today is 27th dec 2005.. another few days will be new yr.. christmas just ended.. holi homework have not been done.. haha.. wondering how to finish if i dont start soon.. i hope next yr will be a reat yr for me.. pri 2, sec 2, have been the best yrs for each stage of education for me... Catholic High School.. 2H, 2-5 are the best class.. i hope, i think 205 will be the best class too.. at least for me.. 2006......

i wish here to anyone who is reading my blog and everyone a MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! :)

J2.. im coming...

2005-11-15T20:08:00.000+08:00

very long never blog le... coming here to seek peace onli.. haha..

got back promos result today.. did quite well i think except for physics.. haiz.. wanted to take physics s paper.. no hope le.. haha.. anyway the class have 2 kena.. kena r... u should noe wat lah. 1 was quite expected.. not say bad or wat lah.. the other is my good sis cum niece... dunno y i feel so bad although i promoted... i feel very sad tt niece got r.. dunno y.. first time saw the gal always in my mind dropped tears.. (the gal is not niece..) i was very shocked then... she just turned ard with her face all red... i suddenly felt so xing suan... i wanted to go there and just comfort her.. but i noe she wont want my presence there at that period of time.. i believe.. i immediately went out of the classroom..

been feeling so low since reaching home... seeing niece kena seemed lyk it's me who kena... i realli dunno why i feel this way... maybe i realli took her as my sibling... wanted to cal her the whole day to tslk to her but i think she should be discussing everything with her parents and her bf.. i should not interfere with watever thing at this time..

first it was 4 gals.. 1 left in june.. and now we have onli 2 left.. situation is going to be very very very jiang if the 2 of us doesnt sort out... onli 2 gals left and there stands one that i lyked so much.. so much.. without niece helping me i dunno wat can i do.. is there any way for me to sort things out b4 next yr...? she said she wanted to concentrate the last time i asked her... when next yr comes, its even worse isnt it... worst its one whole yr... i realli getting vexer and vexer... haiz...

shall end here...

"if there is someone needed to be sacrificed, do not let it be someone i know."

i love u

2005-09-10T15:40:00.000+08:00

im in deep trouble... im trapped... i like someone very much.. initially i tot it was onli puppy love like b4.. (everyone does) but this time is for real... i have been dreaming bout her for the past few days... i am very troubled bcoz i dont even noe how does she think bout me.. i dont dare to ask and i can onli relieve my stress on my good frens... onli the 2 of them noe.. then now matters are blown up...

have been daoed by her for dunno how many times le.. pple say is bcoz the matter is blown up till she becomes embarrassed... i hope so.. then tt day when we went out my fren say maybe she liked someone... dunno true anot.. but i now seriously hope that i can be wif her... in my dream i have such wonderful memories wif her.. i hope it come true... can anyone help me think of how i can help myself...? i reallli dont wish to carry on stressing on such matters when promos are coming... i believe she also dont want to bother herself wif such things now... now is either i woo her or clear up the tales... but i realli want to be wif her... seriously.. nevermind if u dont feel anything for me.. but pls tell me.. its torturing... dont be scared of me if u are.. i wont do anything to u if u dont lyk me...

looking ard, it seems that most of my frens wif their gf are all meet then lyk each other.. dunno how come they can be so lucky... they ask me to treat her better but how when she doesnt look at me when i talk to her..? how when i dunno what she thinks bout me? how, when the news seem so unreal to others but its actually so real..??? can anyone pls help me.... :(

yah its u.. the one who dont let me sit.. compact..........

"love can bring happiness but it also can torture someone.."

some words

2005-08-13T13:00:00.000+08:00

this will be a very short yet meaningful blog...

dont remember the existence of time.. just remember that even if the next second is doom day for the world, this second u and ur love ones are together.. this is the important truth.. there's onli 1 truth, and that is that during this second, we are together....

galz

2005-07-25T19:44:00.000+08:00

haiz.. this week yj j1s are away at obs... cannot go for me.. so ahd to stay in yj to attend some workshop teaching different types of Etiquette and confi in speaking... haha... was quite fun though.. :)

haiz.. galz.. made me so crazy.. haha.. after facing all guys for 10 yrs, i finally reach to a point tt there are onli mixed schoolz.. jcs.. saw another gal today.. was moved yet AGAIN.. haiz.. 1, 2, 3, 4, 5... haiz.. all the galz have different +ve and -ve pts bout them.. want to go forward to woo them but dont dare anymore.. one is tt i dont wish to affect my studies while the other is due to the sad sad sad sad incident happened for 3 times.. haiz.. dunno how to go forward too.. haiz..

once there was a true love placed in front of me, but i didnt try to ask for her heart.. i regretted onli after losing her... it was the biggest regret of my life.. if i have a chance to come all over again, be it the same gal or another, i will tell her once i comfirm my heart tt " I LOVE U".... if there must be a time limit for the love, i wish it to be ten thousand years... :(

life come once in a life time... dont waste any opportunities.. do it when u deem rite..
JUST DO IT!

"normally it is matter which change men, seldom will men have the ability to change matter. BUT, i will be the one to change matter to suit me!!!"

here again

2005-06-19T21:07:00.000+08:00

i have not blogged for a very long time AGAIN.. haha.. been very busy since the end of school term.. project work was very diff.. many things have to be done and so on and so forth.. BUSY..

thankz huizhen and valen to add msg to my blog.. haha.. thankz for comforting me.. i noe ur are going thru difficult times of ur own.. we must work hard to get use to everything... :) life is never easy.. how true..

block test coming up after school reopen.. wat timing.. i wonder.. haha.. anyway hope everyone from every school do their best and get their best result.. best wishes..!!

shall end here now.. its time.. :)

"the one who says that he is the best is actually the worst"

maths

2005-05-26T16:45:00.000+08:00

now im in my maths tutorial room.. hehe.. was just trying the com in the class room and miraculously on it.. haha.. anyway tomoro last day of the school alr.. been in yj for half a year alr.. tried to adapt myself inside and succeeded to a certain extent.. now just waiting for a level's to come and get on with life..

had many tots recently again... thinking about past, present and future.. haiz.. just cannot get on with it.. looking into my class.. haiz.. not very bad but lack something i desired... wat i had in 2-5 and 4-4... wondered why.. haiz.. watever.. missed cat high alot alot ALOT.. couldnt believe i would miss her so much during the 10 years in it.. but i had.. time is so cruel to us...

watched the AC Milan vs LIVERPOOL match this morning... truly the match of the century.. wat come-back by liverpool... salute to rafael benitez... having seen this match, i remembered the times in sec 2 where we, 2-5, came back from 2-0 to win the match 4-2... a truly memorable one... really... haiz..

ok.. shall go and study alr.. next week still got test... have fun...

"with the hey ho, the wind and the rain" by Feste.. :)

return of the snowman

2005-05-15T15:34:00.000+08:00

hehe.. here i am posting again.. after very^infinite long.. think i am bluffing myself into being happy.. am i really happy? do i lead a happy life? am i acting in front of others and myself?? i dunno the answers.. its not fair.. but nothing in this world is fair.. if life is fair i wont be having to cheat myself into understanding myself...

what am i talking.. watever...

anyway cannot go for supposedly need to go OBS le... severely overweight.. haha.. wonder should i be happy or disappointed.. but anyway i feel quite happy after i went for the medical check up.. haha..

had been doing pw since 1 2 months ago.. had many rejected ideas.. but hope the new one is good..

missed cat high alot alot ALOT.. last time we said that cat high is wat is wat.. but after i graduated, i noe y pple say den dao shi qu le cai lai hou hui... haiz... how i wish to go back to the past.. pri 2, pri 4, pri6, sec 2, sec4... every two yrs there are things for me to remember... and its remember deep in my memory... i love cat high...

shall end here now.. studying in jc is very hectic.. life is just study and study.. and do project too.. :)

"Thou shall be my love" life is never fair for anyone..

time

2005-04-14T20:13:00.000+08:00

it have been months since i last posted.. was picking myself up these few weeks after misfortune poured onto me lyk rain.. haha.. still haven realli got over it.. this little msg is for all those who still remembers me n concerns bout me to tell ur tt im still alive.. haha.. should be starting to continue to blog soon.. haha.. tata.. wif love.. :)

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2005-02-27T14:42:00.000+08:00

yesterday was at my grandmother's house.. very tired when i reached home so never post anything..

my baby cousin is getting cuter n cuter.. yesterday played with her the whole day.. yesterday at about 3 my aunt n uncle (my baby cousin's parents) went to the community library in sengkang while she's sleeping at my grandma's house.. then she woke up around 45 mins later n couldnt find her mother n starting crying loudly.. haha. it was so funny tt everyone there started laughing... we quickly asked my aunt to go back.. haha..

had dinner there then my grandma asked me to go to a shopping centre to help her buy something.. when i reach there i saw a little boy crying.. tot his mother would appear soon, i did not bother.. (who would!!) anyway i went into the shop n say a lady inside.. guess wat i heard when the shop owner asked her bout the boy, the woman said "nevermind bout him.. i want him to cry abit.."!!!!!! wat kind of mother is she.. i feel lyk going up scolding the woman but i didn't want to bother... as i was walking away from te shop i saw someone going up to the boy wanting to help him to find his mother.. (a very kind person i think..) then the mother appear... was lyk so pissed off with the mother.. :@

anyway went home at bout 9.. reached home then watched tv then sleep.. today 11 something then wake up.. hahaa.. kk.. shall end here..

"thou shall be my love.." ;)

Lousy Day..

2005-02-25T22:57:00.000+08:00

today ponned school.. again.. haha..

went over to cw's house to spend my morning and afternoon.. yesterday was there too n tt's where i did my blog.. :) though was quite boring but had fun with cw n gk... they were playing rose online then i watched them play... was quite fun actually.. but not interested to play.. haha..

anyway stayed until 3 at his house then went home to bath and change my clothes (our house r just a few blocks away.. ;) ) then went to meet my yj og class with gk... today was quite lucky too though.. as i was just walking to the mrt, i saw my permanent class's classmates.. didnt want them to see me in my home clothes if not later they might ask y never go school all these ques.. haiz.. anyway was able to avoid them with the help of gk.. haha..

i expected to be late meeting my og class in causeway pt but guess wat, they were even later.. i almost wanted to hit each of them.. :0 we decided to play pool in causeway pt.. WAS playing with jimmy, heng yong, and NOEL.. but then noel say he got no money so heng yong called his fren to take over him.. dunno how come heng yong fren there also.. but anw tt's not the pt.. today i lost form lah.. couldnt hit simple balls.. i could hit in the ball tycoly onli.. i will miss if i aim.. haha.. onli today i think.. then jimmy and heng yong also missed some balls then they started cursing the pool table.. maybe i should blame the table too.. haha..

then had to rush for dinner since my dotter n others r waiting in yj at 630 for the Anthony n Cleopatra show by yj.. left the pool at around 6 then went fd junction.. we met up with xi xun there.. had to eat real fast as valen was keep rushing us.. finally we left causeway pt at bout 615.. thinking tt we will be late we ran from yishun mrt to yj.. we seriously RAN... i was soaked when i reached the school.. the frustrating part was tt when we reach there the teacher say we cannot go in yet!!! was so frustrated tt my face turned all black.. :(

finally we went into the audi at around 645... waited patiently for it to start while i wait for the sweat to dry up.. watched the show half way then xi xun n the rest were alr complaining bout wasting money coming here to watch some crazy pple acting.. but i think its ok as i understood the play (thankz to the teaching of Shakespeare's play by mrs neo.. really appreciated her..) but the show overall s---s... it was far from the standard of acjc's Twelfth Nite play in 2003.. this play realli cmi.. the ending was even worse.. wat was suppose to be a sad ending ended up to be a joke with the whole audi breaking into laughters...!!!??

so at the break halfway, t31 decided to leave as it realli s---s.. but we had no agreement on where to go for the whole 20 min... everyone was doing their own thing while i try to come up with a solution... i was fuming then but luckily never blast out.. eventually me, jun, asm n gab decided to go back n continue watching while the rest left.. from a group of 10 pple to onli 4... how sad..

the whole show ended at ard 10 then we left the school.. gab went back with jun while asm followed them to mrt then went to take bus.. as for me i went home straight n here i am blogging.. haiz.. today was such a long day n not very gd too from my perspective... anyway shall end here..

"My pleasure lies in the East.." ;)

O's are coming out on monday...

2005-02-24T22:31:00.000+08:00

The results are coming out on mon 28 Feb le.. its real fast loh.. its like yesterday 4-4 was just studying (playing table tennis too) in the school and the benches below the staff room r filled with sec 4s loh... then was saying bout first 3 months first 3 months but suddenly the 3 months have gone by... but also not bad lah.. get it over and done with n take the results then can put the o's behind us alr..

HOPE EVERYONE CAN GET THE RESULTS THEY WANT..

haiz.. had been thinking bout the release of results since all the rumours have been spreading.. finally got an answer when i look at the moe's website..

Notification of Release of 2004 GCE O-Level Examination Results

The results of the 2004 Singapore-Cambridge General Certificate of Education Ordinary Level Examination will be released on Monday, 28 February 2005.

Finally got a confirmed answer.. now i am just waiting for the arrival of monday.. :)

shall end my second blog entry here with a line...
"if music be the food of love, play on" ;)

First time with this

2005-02-24T15:34:00.000+08:00

have been seeing many pple having a blog so now i am here doing a blog for myself.. :)